Dreams. Determination. Doubt.

Today I will be sending off my first query letter....

It's been 8 months of writing and polishing manuscript #3.

It's been 2 1/2 years of studying the craft, reading the message boards, the books, the advice from every 'so-called' expert I could get my hands on.

It's been a lifetime of dreaming about this day.

I know that the odds are against me.  I know that I very well could receive hundreds of rejections for this novel.  That I may never get even a request.

I know that no matter what, tomorrow I need to wake up and start Book #4.

I know all that.  And I'm doing it anyways. And I'm scared out of my mind.

I must be crazy.  Certifiable.